…is to say, "I want to suffer."
I read this profound quotation from Sigmund Freud in a great story I finished last night: “Whoever loves becomes humble. Those who love have, so to speak, pawned a part of their narcissism.”
As for the restayuz, here's some free advice: Don't settle. Don't settle on a "good enough" future. Don't be cowed by bigots. Don't pretend that fear is courage. Don't be a "pathetic figure" in your own life story. I've told it before to friends who needed to hear it and I'm saying it again: Don't settle.
That's right. That amnesia-crutch you like so much right now? Careful you don't settle for it. It'll just end up being the pole you hang your white flag of surrender on.